I spent this weekend in a local city about 4 hours away. On Saturday, I had an appointment at the hospital to get this illness sorted out that has been plaguing me for weeks now. It has honestly been a rough few weeks for me. For a while, I tried to pretend that it wasn't bothering me to see if it was in my head, but that just caused me to get worse, and resulted in me hitting my head. After about the 4th or 5th week like this, I went back to the school doctor and she sent me to a specialist in Coimbatore. I spent about 5 hours at the hospital and left with a diagnosis of "migraines". I had a CT scan and bloodwork done, so at least we know it's not too serious, but even with the new medicine, I'm still bothered by headaches and occassional bouts of dizziness (though not as bad as they've been in the past). They tend to get worse as I get more tired (so, later in the week, and later in the day), and medicine does not help them at all. In fact, no medicine I've encountered to this point helps. I honestly hate that in order to be honest to people, I have to say that I still have headaches. I wish that I was at the top of my game. But I'm not. I can normally muster up the energy to function around 80% for a whole school day, but after school is out, I'm gone. I would love to be back to 100%, or at 80% for 16 hours out of a day instead of 9 or 10. It really isolates me.
I've decided recently to make some changes to my daily schedule, and this includes putting in an hour that I do something for me. I compose for me. Read for me. Study something for me. Off the internet. Away from the world. An hour a day where no-one bothers me and it has nothing to do with work or any sort of "force".
So this is my life at the moment. We're getting down to the wire, and I have so much work to do. If you have a moment, please send up a prayer for these headaches to go away soon. I'd really appreciate that. Thanks guys!
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