Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Life goes on...

So, RSM is over. Tomorrow we'll go through the results... whatever. At this point, we can't change anything... no stressing...

I took the first steps last night in making some major decisions for my life, and I'm very excited about them. Hopefully by the beginning of next week it will be official.

There's really not a lot going on right now as tomorrow will be my first day of having a life in about a month... but that's cool.... might try to go for a bike ride tomorrow... i could use one...

As you can see, my typing keeps getting worse... so I shall go and relax the night away...

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Rest In Peace

I didn't want to ever have to write this entry. Or an entry that follows this thread, ever. There have been a few people that have passed away since I moved here last year, but this one is the closest. A man who was like my grandfather passed away in the states on Monday, October 19. I found out on my Tuesday morning, and I spent the entire morning in tears. I even missed some school, and that is something I NEVER do. It makes it really hard, because while I'm here, I have no-one around me who knows him. I can't talk about him and have people know what I'm saying. I can't talk about how excited I was to see him this summer, and how he and his wife were the first people I went looking for during fellowship after early service. People don't know how much the e-mails of simple pictures of his yard meant to me. Just getting a simple e-mail from him would make my day. He always supported me. He and his wife were my secret saints when I went away to college. In the first package I received from home, they had included a Christmas gift from me. A necklace, that gets worn quite a bit, A salt and pepper shaker that are always out (even though they are snowmen!), and a bear that rests on my dresser. Even as I write this, I'm crying. And I know what I feel is NOTHING compared to what his family and friends are feeling at home. I pray for them in every moment I have. I wish I could be there. But I can't. I'm here, and I have a job to do.

And the night before I got this news, I got some other great news. News that is dappened a bit by this, but news that means a lot. I can't wait until I get to tell you!

My days are running together, and I'm just trying to do each bit as it comes. I miss my family at times likes this.

Today, Pastor and I had a good talk. I stopped by to see him before I had a meeting with the VP. And it was really, really good. He's pretty awesome. I'm so glad there are good people here. I would go insane if they weren't here.

I'm going to go and go to bed, but I wanted to include this poem that I first heard at my grandmother's funeral in 2004. As I read it, it brings back memories of everyone I've lost, but especially, in this moment, of Sky. It fits his life like a glove. And I miss him terribly.

http://www.appleseeds.org/tomorrow.htm

Saturday, October 17, 2009

It's been so long...

I'm so sorry it's been so long since I've written. I've been so very busy for the last few weeks. I'm glad that today is over. We have 10 days until RSM is over, and then just two weeks until theory is over. There are so many times that I feel completely incompetent doing this. I've been thrown in, and I'm trying to make sure that I keep everything moving forward. I get frustrated. I get annoyed. I laugh. It's important that I keep laughing, otherwise, I might go insane.

But it does seem that things are looking up... in life in general. As I've taken on this new role, I try to make especially sure that every morning before school I spend some time in prayer and meditation just so I'm focused on what is really important when I get to school. We have little issues in comparison to the big picture. So if I just remember to see that, I can get through.

I really don't have an exciting life. Unless you count all the new adventures that seem to be happening all at once. It's interesting, but I guess, really only to me... not to anyone else. :-)

<3

Thursday, October 8, 2009

It's official....

... so I can write about it now...

I am the Head of Music here at the school. This gives me the opportunity to take on new challenges and keep myself busy. Which, if you know me, is exactly what I need to remain interested in anything, but especially life. I'm known for scheduling myself to the point of no free time, and while I've learned that lesson, I still enjoy the challenge of having to make things work. So that's what I get to do now. I can tell you that the last two days have not been boring in the least, and that these last five minutes have been the only breather I have had. FINALLY, a moment where my phone hasn't begun ringing or I've had to run somewhere, or respond to an e-mail that hasn't been answered...

It's good. It will keep me on my toes, and, hopefully, teach me many new things.

I also got some exciting news in an e-mail the other day, but that one is not going on the blog yet. Let's just say that it makes me very excited!

It's RSM month. Which means I'm after school until 6 every day, at school early, at school on Saturdays, and trying to take Sunday to rest.

*sorry. Got interrupted there by an e-mail. I think I may be ADD and why things like this excite me. I'm weird.

The situation in and of itself is interesting, because the old HoD left so suddenly and because it's the middle of the busiest time of the year. It creates a lot of unique situations that have to be tackled, but slowly I'm getting it done.

It was good to hear from some different people around the school who support this decision and support me. It's truly great to know.