So, RSM is over. Tomorrow we'll go through the results... whatever. At this point, we can't change anything... no stressing...
I took the first steps last night in making some major decisions for my life, and I'm very excited about them. Hopefully by the beginning of next week it will be official.
There's really not a lot going on right now as tomorrow will be my first day of having a life in about a month... but that's cool.... might try to go for a bike ride tomorrow... i could use one...
As you can see, my typing keeps getting worse... so I shall go and relax the night away...
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Rest In Peace
I didn't want to ever have to write this entry. Or an entry that follows this thread, ever. There have been a few people that have passed away since I moved here last year, but this one is the closest. A man who was like my grandfather passed away in the states on Monday, October 19. I found out on my Tuesday morning, and I spent the entire morning in tears. I even missed some school, and that is something I NEVER do. It makes it really hard, because while I'm here, I have no-one around me who knows him. I can't talk about him and have people know what I'm saying. I can't talk about how excited I was to see him this summer, and how he and his wife were the first people I went looking for during fellowship after early service. People don't know how much the e-mails of simple pictures of his yard meant to me. Just getting a simple e-mail from him would make my day. He always supported me. He and his wife were my secret saints when I went away to college. In the first package I received from home, they had included a Christmas gift from me. A necklace, that gets worn quite a bit, A salt and pepper shaker that are always out (even though they are snowmen!), and a bear that rests on my dresser. Even as I write this, I'm crying. And I know what I feel is NOTHING compared to what his family and friends are feeling at home. I pray for them in every moment I have. I wish I could be there. But I can't. I'm here, and I have a job to do.
And the night before I got this news, I got some other great news. News that is dappened a bit by this, but news that means a lot. I can't wait until I get to tell you!
My days are running together, and I'm just trying to do each bit as it comes. I miss my family at times likes this.
Today, Pastor and I had a good talk. I stopped by to see him before I had a meeting with the VP. And it was really, really good. He's pretty awesome. I'm so glad there are good people here. I would go insane if they weren't here.
I'm going to go and go to bed, but I wanted to include this poem that I first heard at my grandmother's funeral in 2004. As I read it, it brings back memories of everyone I've lost, but especially, in this moment, of Sky. It fits his life like a glove. And I miss him terribly.
http://www.appleseeds.org/tomorrow.htm
And the night before I got this news, I got some other great news. News that is dappened a bit by this, but news that means a lot. I can't wait until I get to tell you!
My days are running together, and I'm just trying to do each bit as it comes. I miss my family at times likes this.
Today, Pastor and I had a good talk. I stopped by to see him before I had a meeting with the VP. And it was really, really good. He's pretty awesome. I'm so glad there are good people here. I would go insane if they weren't here.
I'm going to go and go to bed, but I wanted to include this poem that I first heard at my grandmother's funeral in 2004. As I read it, it brings back memories of everyone I've lost, but especially, in this moment, of Sky. It fits his life like a glove. And I miss him terribly.
http://www.appleseeds.org/tomorrow.htm
Saturday, October 17, 2009
It's been so long...
I'm so sorry it's been so long since I've written. I've been so very busy for the last few weeks. I'm glad that today is over. We have 10 days until RSM is over, and then just two weeks until theory is over. There are so many times that I feel completely incompetent doing this. I've been thrown in, and I'm trying to make sure that I keep everything moving forward. I get frustrated. I get annoyed. I laugh. It's important that I keep laughing, otherwise, I might go insane.
But it does seem that things are looking up... in life in general. As I've taken on this new role, I try to make especially sure that every morning before school I spend some time in prayer and meditation just so I'm focused on what is really important when I get to school. We have little issues in comparison to the big picture. So if I just remember to see that, I can get through.
I really don't have an exciting life. Unless you count all the new adventures that seem to be happening all at once. It's interesting, but I guess, really only to me... not to anyone else. :-)
<3
But it does seem that things are looking up... in life in general. As I've taken on this new role, I try to make especially sure that every morning before school I spend some time in prayer and meditation just so I'm focused on what is really important when I get to school. We have little issues in comparison to the big picture. So if I just remember to see that, I can get through.
I really don't have an exciting life. Unless you count all the new adventures that seem to be happening all at once. It's interesting, but I guess, really only to me... not to anyone else. :-)
<3
Thursday, October 8, 2009
It's official....
... so I can write about it now...
I am the Head of Music here at the school. This gives me the opportunity to take on new challenges and keep myself busy. Which, if you know me, is exactly what I need to remain interested in anything, but especially life. I'm known for scheduling myself to the point of no free time, and while I've learned that lesson, I still enjoy the challenge of having to make things work. So that's what I get to do now. I can tell you that the last two days have not been boring in the least, and that these last five minutes have been the only breather I have had. FINALLY, a moment where my phone hasn't begun ringing or I've had to run somewhere, or respond to an e-mail that hasn't been answered...
It's good. It will keep me on my toes, and, hopefully, teach me many new things.
I also got some exciting news in an e-mail the other day, but that one is not going on the blog yet. Let's just say that it makes me very excited!
It's RSM month. Which means I'm after school until 6 every day, at school early, at school on Saturdays, and trying to take Sunday to rest.
*sorry. Got interrupted there by an e-mail. I think I may be ADD and why things like this excite me. I'm weird.
The situation in and of itself is interesting, because the old HoD left so suddenly and because it's the middle of the busiest time of the year. It creates a lot of unique situations that have to be tackled, but slowly I'm getting it done.
It was good to hear from some different people around the school who support this decision and support me. It's truly great to know.
I am the Head of Music here at the school. This gives me the opportunity to take on new challenges and keep myself busy. Which, if you know me, is exactly what I need to remain interested in anything, but especially life. I'm known for scheduling myself to the point of no free time, and while I've learned that lesson, I still enjoy the challenge of having to make things work. So that's what I get to do now. I can tell you that the last two days have not been boring in the least, and that these last five minutes have been the only breather I have had. FINALLY, a moment where my phone hasn't begun ringing or I've had to run somewhere, or respond to an e-mail that hasn't been answered...
It's good. It will keep me on my toes, and, hopefully, teach me many new things.
I also got some exciting news in an e-mail the other day, but that one is not going on the blog yet. Let's just say that it makes me very excited!
It's RSM month. Which means I'm after school until 6 every day, at school early, at school on Saturdays, and trying to take Sunday to rest.
*sorry. Got interrupted there by an e-mail. I think I may be ADD and why things like this excite me. I'm weird.
The situation in and of itself is interesting, because the old HoD left so suddenly and because it's the middle of the busiest time of the year. It creates a lot of unique situations that have to be tackled, but slowly I'm getting it done.
It was good to hear from some different people around the school who support this decision and support me. It's truly great to know.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Not the same person...
... I'm not the same person I was last year. We're constantly changing and growing, into hopefully better people and more Godly people. There have been so many things going on, that I don't really have a chance to write about them all. I went on field trip with the tenth graders, and had a good time with the students. I had a fun in the villages we spent time at, and really got to know students (and practice Tamil on occassion).
Over the week, our HoD decided to leave the school, leaving us with issues to straighten out and slowly but surely we are working on them. One step at a time. Only a few weeks left until the end of the semester.
This brings a lot of changes to ideas I had about my future, and I think it's God yelling at me. I was considering so many things a few weeks ago, and now He's just stopping me and telling me what He wants and where He wants me right now. I spent a lot of time in prayer, and talking with people I trust and mean a lot to me. All in all, I found good advice and people who understand and support me.
I really hope this is a turning point and that things change. We'll see where they go, and later I can be more open and honest about what's going on, but this is what you get for now.
<3
Over the week, our HoD decided to leave the school, leaving us with issues to straighten out and slowly but surely we are working on them. One step at a time. Only a few weeks left until the end of the semester.
This brings a lot of changes to ideas I had about my future, and I think it's God yelling at me. I was considering so many things a few weeks ago, and now He's just stopping me and telling me what He wants and where He wants me right now. I spent a lot of time in prayer, and talking with people I trust and mean a lot to me. All in all, I found good advice and people who understand and support me.
I really hope this is a turning point and that things change. We'll see where they go, and later I can be more open and honest about what's going on, but this is what you get for now.
<3
Thursday, September 17, 2009
"Because we're Hindu"
I spent the evening with some friends over at their house, and it was amazing. I met some of their other friends and I haven't laughed that much in a long time. I also learned a lot through listening to their conversations. It was really interesting, even if he didn't think I was interested. :-)
He shared a story about when he was on a train one time, and a family was there with their child, and they'd shaved his head and pierced his ear. Pretending to be a dumb tourist, he asked the father why they pierced his ear, with the response "Because we're Hindu". He explained that he understood that, but what does it mean, why did they do that. "Because we're Hindu," the man replied again. "But why the pierced ear?" And the gentleman turned to his wife and asked hime why they pierced their son's ear, and she told him to say "Because we're Hindu".
I tell this story because it reminds me of how complacent Christians become. We do things because other people do them. We see someone raising their hands during a song, and we do it. We see someone praying, so we pray. We know that we're supposed to be baptized during our lives, so we say we're ready for baptism. But do we really understand the reason? Do we really note the implications of our actions and wonder where they came from, what they symbolize?
There is so much complacency going through America, but at the same time, I see places that are beginning to address this. People are starting to realize that high school and college are huge turning points in the lives of young people and are a ministry that needs attention. And I'm glad to say that I see HUGE things taking place among those populations. It is a time where so much is changing in our lives, and where we make decisions that affect us for the rest of our lives.
I read an article a few months ago that stated that once people hit 25-30, the chances of them coming to Christ decrease significantly. I wonder why that is? Do we become so hardened or stubborn at that age that we can't change our patterns? O, to see God do amazing things... I am so blessed to witness them!
<3
He shared a story about when he was on a train one time, and a family was there with their child, and they'd shaved his head and pierced his ear. Pretending to be a dumb tourist, he asked the father why they pierced his ear, with the response "Because we're Hindu". He explained that he understood that, but what does it mean, why did they do that. "Because we're Hindu," the man replied again. "But why the pierced ear?" And the gentleman turned to his wife and asked hime why they pierced their son's ear, and she told him to say "Because we're Hindu".
I tell this story because it reminds me of how complacent Christians become. We do things because other people do them. We see someone raising their hands during a song, and we do it. We see someone praying, so we pray. We know that we're supposed to be baptized during our lives, so we say we're ready for baptism. But do we really understand the reason? Do we really note the implications of our actions and wonder where they came from, what they symbolize?
There is so much complacency going through America, but at the same time, I see places that are beginning to address this. People are starting to realize that high school and college are huge turning points in the lives of young people and are a ministry that needs attention. And I'm glad to say that I see HUGE things taking place among those populations. It is a time where so much is changing in our lives, and where we make decisions that affect us for the rest of our lives.
I read an article a few months ago that stated that once people hit 25-30, the chances of them coming to Christ decrease significantly. I wonder why that is? Do we become so hardened or stubborn at that age that we can't change our patterns? O, to see God do amazing things... I am so blessed to witness them!
<3
Sunday, September 13, 2009
For a Higher Purpose...
"I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my work, and this was the reward for all my labor. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun."
Ecclesiastes 2:10-11
When we work for worldly things, it is of no use. It is not until we are working for a higher purpose that it means anything. "Nothing was gained under the sun." Man, what a powerful statement.
I find it easy to get discouraged here, and feeling that nothing is being accomplished under the sun. The other day, during one of my tutoring sessions where I have about three students in my office at one time, we somehow got into an interesting discussion on denominations of Christianity and variations of worship practices. It was a really interesting discussion and I learned a lot about those particular students. It was refreshing and reminded me that there is a higher purpose in all of this. We're all learning together and growing. I'm really glad my students feel comfortable enough to have discussions like that with me.
I've had a couple really good discussions with staff at the school this week that have left me feeling encouraged and reminded that God leads us and when He does, we can stand anything.
Only one week of school left until field trip week and then I think there are only 9 weeks left until break.
Ecclesiastes 2:10-11
When we work for worldly things, it is of no use. It is not until we are working for a higher purpose that it means anything. "Nothing was gained under the sun." Man, what a powerful statement.
I find it easy to get discouraged here, and feeling that nothing is being accomplished under the sun. The other day, during one of my tutoring sessions where I have about three students in my office at one time, we somehow got into an interesting discussion on denominations of Christianity and variations of worship practices. It was a really interesting discussion and I learned a lot about those particular students. It was refreshing and reminded me that there is a higher purpose in all of this. We're all learning together and growing. I'm really glad my students feel comfortable enough to have discussions like that with me.
I've had a couple really good discussions with staff at the school this week that have left me feeling encouraged and reminded that God leads us and when He does, we can stand anything.
Only one week of school left until field trip week and then I think there are only 9 weeks left until break.
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